This blog post is in response to Natalie’s 10 Day Freedom Plan Blog Challenge Day 3
This exercise, “Visualizing Your Perfect Day,” forced me to face an unattractive reality in my life. I’ve been so busy putting out fires and reacting to crises over the years, that I really haven’t been paying attention to my path or direction. It’s been react, react, react. And, that’s not the way I want to continue living. So this is a truly beautiful question! It got my attention. It woke me up! It helped remind me that I do have a “say” in my life. That no matter how old I am and how much time has passed, I still have the ability to create a life. But then at the same time, I had a hard time actually focusing on myself and what “I” want.
After pondering my perfect day for most of today, and feeling quite uncertain , I deflected by asking my 11-year-old son, when he came home from school, what his perfect day would be like. I prompted him by asking what he’d do for a living and what he’d do in the morning, afternoon and evening. And, much to my surprise, this is what he spit out, in a quite matter-of-fact tone. He said he’d be a pro hockey player. In the mornings he’d get up and watch an inappropriate cartoon (which I shall not name, and makes me wonder how in the hell he knows about this particular cartoon), eat pizza, go play in his NHL game at night and then pick up his Australian model girlfriend in his Lambo and go out to dinner. WTF????
I write “WTF” because, first of all, I’m wondering where my son is learning about inappropriate cartoons, Lambos and Australian models!! He’s only 11 after all! And, then I am in awe at how easy it was for him to imagine his perfect life. How in touch with those things that give him joy. Myself? I feel out of touch. Ideally, what I’d love to do is create multiple scenarios with different characters – like in a script – and then act each one out to see which one feels comfortable. Since I don’t have that luxury at the moment….Because we do have a deadline……Here it goes….Completely spontaneous….From my brain to the page…..I’m going to piece it together as I go…..Telling myself not to care what others think….…And, encouraging myself that if an 11-year-old can do this, so can I!
I’m living in a modern prefab house in the trees….Am I in Colorado? California? Canada? The floors are cement with cream carpets (scratch the cream carpets…I live with males……for clarification – my husband and son). There are oriental rugs that don’t show stains. My bedroom walls have ceiling to floor window that make you feel that you are actually sleeping outside -inside/out living a la Frank Lloyd Wright. I look out the window and see a beach, or some body of water, in the horizon. I say to myself, “That is a beautiful view! What a great way to wake up!” My husband is working on his art, music and furniture design in his studio. My son is getting ready to go to school that actually teaches different learners and has a hockey team. He likes going to school and is actually learning something.
I go to my kitchen, which is light and bright – a sleek Italian kitchen. My refrigerator is stocked with organic fruits and vegetables – stocked by my chef (because although I’m a certified raw food chef, I’m not a fan of making food). I grab a freshly squeezed green juice and walk onto my patio that looks over the trees and I can smell the scent of pine needles. I go back into the house and do yoga for an hour, steam for 30 minutes in my infrared sauna or steam sauna, and shower. I dress in comfortable, plain clothes…like dressy yoga clothes that you can actually where out (even if you don’t live in California…unless I do live in California. Do clothes like these even exist?) I’m not a big clothes fan….that doesn’t mean that I don’t like wearing clothes……but that it would be lovely to just wear the same style of clothes each day (maybe different colors) so I didn’t have to think about it in the morning…just reducing decision fatigue….and another excuse to become a yoga instructor.
I have my breakfast – a smoothie and a bowl of oatmeal with almonds, strawberries and a cocoa/coconut oil based sauce. I notice that when I eat well, exercise and take care of myself in the morning I feel great throughout the day. I feel so centered and calm. At one with the universe.
I grab my laptop and go outside on the patio in the trees to work on my business – Am I writing my blog? Am I interviewing alternative doctors and scientists, developing a website portal for alternative/holistic healthcare? Developing an insurance plan for alternative/naturopathic health care? I enjoy gathering and organizing information that can be shared with people to make their lives better or easier so they can bring their gifts to the world. I like creating information that can make a difference…..That encourages people to take action. So many people these days are distracted by health issues that it’s hard for them to reach their full potential. They are focused on getting well…on feeling better. What if these people weren’t sick or ill any longer? What would they be free to do in the world? Getting and staying healthy can be such a distraction to living a life…..I know this first hand.
I plan a few trips to Arizona, California and Maine to visit and interview alternative doctors and visit healthy food manufacturers. I also plan trips to Sweden, Canada, and Switzerland where there are clinics and regulators I’d like to interview and connect with. These are places where my family can also go to pursue their interests in hockey, skiing, golf, computers, art and design. We love travelling together and seeing the world.
My husband interrupts me so we can eat lunch together. We warm up something that the chef has prepared and left in the refrigerator. After, I meditate for 20 minutes. My husband, goes to our organic greenhouses to check on our produce, which we sell through a side business.
Then I get back to…..creating, designing, sharing. Videos? A documentary? Reading, watching, learning.
I am called by the association I started that is based in Washington DC. Congress is seeking testimony about GMO foods. “Am I available?” they want to know. Because we have raised so much money with our membership fees (only $25/person and have 1 million members), we have $25 million to hire lobbyists that can fight the large corporations that pass laws to protect their unhealthy and environmentally irresponsible products and business practices. We are changing laws to allow alternative health practitioners to have their own insurance program focusing on prevention. Medical students now have one year internships with integrative, functional medical doctors.
In the evening we invite friends over for dinner. We take our son to hockey practice or watch one of his games.
We sit outside on the patio and look at the stars, sipping Chaga tea with steamed almond milk and cinnamon. My son says he doesn’t like it and wants a kombuche instead.
My son then tells me he hates video games and wants to read books instead. He says he wants to do ANYTHING on the computer EXCEPT play video games. He says to me that video games ruin your brain and he can’t understand how kids can be so gullible to be wasting their time and lives on that garbage. (Is this too much to ask?)
Then we all go to sleep completely fulfilled – feeling that we spent our day pursuing our interests, developing our talents, and bringing our gifts to the world.
After all that trepidation in the beginning, this challenge actually made me feel so, so happy and at peace by the end. There was no commute, no traffic, no “have-tos.” These were all “want-tos”. I felt a complete shift in my energy writing this….from uncertainty and doubt to – DAMN, I WANT THIS!